Teddy Bear.

February 12,2001


Tonight I was sitting at the table doing my math homework. Becky had went outside to get some firewood because my dad had asked her to build a fire. So she went outside to get some and she left the door open. I could feel the air caring down on my feet. All of a sudden I felt a chill go through my body. I decided to go out there because she had been out there a while. I went out there and I see here just laying on the grass crying and shivering so I run to her and she is just hugging Teddy (our dog) I look at her and say, "is he dead?" From this point I knew he was and I started crying.I ran in to the living room where my mom and dad were talking and say, "Dad! Teddy is dead." He got up and followed me and we went outside. We were all sitting and standing starring at him. So my Dad calls my oldest brother Chris.Chris came over and we looked at Teddy for a while then Chris picked him up and they put him in Chris' truck. They took him away. ... He is in dog heaven where i know he is much happier. But I am still so mad and very sad and crying as I write this.Just thinking of him or looking at a picture of him brings tears to my eyes. I loved him so much and will always love him. Becky and I were talking about it and It seems as if something is missing or something got taken away. He was the best Dog EVER!  He lived for almost 12 years. (born June 18,1989-Died February 12,2001) He was getting very old. It was funny because last night Becky and I were saying that we should put him to sleep before we have to watch him die. I wished I would have spent more time with him. But i can't change that. It will be weird not having him watch me or follow me to Newell's every morning or playing with Teddy in the summer. or any time. I will really miss him. But i know he's in Doggie Heaven. 


Love, Ashley


Ps: I love my Doggie. 

Today was the 10 year mark from when my childhood best friend of a dog passed away. Every year I pull out my journal and read this entry. A dog is really a mans (or little girls) best friend. 

I would share my ice cream with him. Talk to him when I was sad. happy. tell him about the boys i liked or if i was mad at my friends.he was always there to listen. go on runs with him. let him pull me on my rollerblades.play catch with him. tease him. sneak him in the mudroom when mom wasn't looking. feed him my extra pancakes on saturday mornings. set up obstacle courses for him. he was the best. no dog could ever replace him.

i was one lucky little girl to have him. he will always have a special place in our families heart.

{his christmas ornament on our tree}

{in our fam pictures}

love you my teddy bear.  

xoxo